These past couple of years making jewelry I have been on the treadmill, making, making, making. I haven't taken time to reflect. I knew there would be time this winter, but I did not realize how much time. I thought I had until the first part of February and then I would have to kick it up a notch. However, the show I applied to for the end of March fell through. It was disappointing, but now I'm really looking forward to more time to reflect and learn. I had to ask myself, am I making jewelry to make money, or am I making jewelry to fulfill my need to create?
I am a creative person. All my life I have been creating something, whether it be paintings, sewing of some sort or jewelry. Heck, my whole family is creative. My grandmother and her sister were painters. A couple of my aunts draw, my little sister is a cupcake wizzard, and my middle sister and my mom make scrap book layouts and hand stamped greeting cards. The reason I started making jewelry was to fill a creative gap. However, this last year I lost sense of that a little bit with the craziness of readying for shows balanced with a full-time non-creative job. It got me a bit burnt out. To be totally truthful, I've been a bit of a couch potatoe lately, too tired and creatively dried up. I so want to come up with innovative jewelry designs that will blow your socks off!!!! I want to enter a competition or two and to participate in the PMC Guild's Masters' Registry.
Cheri reminds me of what my goal is for this year - to look back and reflect so that I can move forward. What did I love about this last year or two. What can I let go of? My load this year was far too heavy. I don't have the energy for all of this. I know myself. What I really want is the time to create without the competition of a full-time job. I want to garden and I want to go to some summer shows. I really like connecting with people and sharing with them what inspires me and how I create my jewelry.
I feel a little vulnerable sharing all of this with you...